I want it all!

How about you?

I want it all. The joy and the heartbreak.

The laughter and the tears.

The messy, raw, gut-wrenching reality of being alive.

For years, I didn’t know what it meant to truly live.

I numbed myself out, hiding from the feelings I thought would destroy me.

And I was great at it. I didn’t feel pain—but I didn’t feel joy either.

Because you can’t choose which emotions to numb. You lose it all.

The belly laughs that make your sides ache? Gone.

The thrill of happiness that bubbles up unexpectedly? Gone.

The quiet contentment of a beautiful moment? Gone.

I lived in shades of grey, and I didn’t even know what I was missing. Until I woke up.

Waking up to life isn’t easy—it’s not all sunshine and rainbows.

Pain comes flooding in too. But I’ve learned this: the pain is worth it.

Because life in full colour is vibrant.

It’s messy, chaotic, and glorious.

It’s delicious.

And I want to feel every single moment of it.

I don’t want to survive my life—I want to savour it.

How about you? What does living fully look like to you?

Photo by Steve Johnson