Oh how I don’t want to “feel” life sometimes

Life’s about ups and downs

Oh how I don’t want to “feel” some days, yet life is about experience. Good and not so good. Ups and downs.

Numbing my feelings took work. Lots of work. It was exhausting to be catatonic all the time. Looking for ways to avoid my life.

Living life on life’s terms is like a rollercoaster and I wouldn’t miss it for the world. The twisting and turning, the screaming and your stomach jumping from excitement.

Life is for the living. I spent years dying. Walking dead. Am I happy for the hard experiences?

Not really, but they help me to grow. They’re an opportunity for teaching.

To serve the evolution of my soul if I choose to see the lessons. If I’m open, I can awaken to the beauty of life

Photo by Albin Berlin