Where have You been?

There You are

Even in the darkness I see. I see glimpses of light. Light that opens into my soul.

It reminds me of days when I ached to be seen and heard.

I remember being desperate, longing for recognition from outside.

You see the thing is, it was there all along. Inside of me. Who knew?

For years I searched and searched for clarity, for answers, for any kind of knowledge into me.

Would I find it if I just opened the pages of this book or go to this conference or retreat?

No, it’s not there. Where can it be? Why can’t I find “it”? Why can’t I find meaning? Why can’t I find “me”? 

Then one day it all began to make sense. When I stopped searching outward and looked to the one place I hadn’t dreamed of looking...inside.

There “I” was! There I was staring back with childlike awe and wonder with questions and stories. With war stories of adventure and coming through the trenches. I made it. And I lived to tell about it.

Where had I been? There was a recognition of Souls. The outer soul and the inner. A deep recognition.

And so began a conversation which has continued. Conversation disguised as prayer.

At once my Soul seemed at peace. There I found me.